the one with all the positivity

Life is beautiful. 

I have a roof over my head, clothes on my back, and food in my tummy. More than that, the sun shone and a ladybug landed on my finger and i feel so incredibly grateful. God is good. I often come on here to complain and vent. And its good, it helps me articulate my very much confusing emotion. But today i think i need to take a break from that. Because life is fun and its turbulent and some days like today i just simply feel euphoric. It doesnt mean everything else is fixed. Its all still there, but despite that i am choosing to focus on the good.  On the light and happy and playful things that life has afforded me. I have so so much to smile about. 

I think that the energy you put out into the world is the energy you receive. You know, basic law of attraction, you manifest the things you focus on or think about. I want to give myself a bit of credit. And now maybe this isnt all apparent based on what ive written, however i am a multifaceted person, and you dont know me.

I am kind, and loving and loyal. I try to make people smile and laugh. I sing and i dance unashamedly. I am a bit weird, but i am true to myself. I am authentic, even if that means other people judging me. I help people who need it, i hold the door, i complement strangers. I am a beautiful, free spirit. I make mistakes. I am imperfect. I am enough. 

Sometimes I fail. Sometimes i succeed. Sometimes I laugh. Sometimes I cry. 

Everytime I keep going. I pick myself up. I push forward. I move on. I put on a brave face.

I am a strong eighteen year old girl, and i am incredibly proud of myself. I havent done anything crazily extraordinary (yet), but I have done some pretty hard shit. I have gotten through really tough situations, and i continue to persist. 

The only constant is change. The highs and the lows…they never last forever. So make the most. Keep going. Be grateful. It all has a bigger purpose. And even if you can’t understand it right now, trust in God, that it will all fall into place. 

There is so much beauty and love and happiness and kindness around us. Acknowledge it, accept it, spread it. Make a positive impact, it doesn't have to be on the whole world, it can be one person. It might change their whole world, you never know. 

I love that i give out so much love.

And I am worthy of receiving that love too. 

Be patient, be kind, be you

It will all be ok

It is all ok

In fact it is absolutely beautiful