i really just don't know.

There are so many things i really just have no idea what to think of. So many scenarios i dont know how to handle. So many opinions i dont know which to pick. Right or wrong? I really dont know. 

I think we are always expected to have an answer. To take a stance, pick a side. To know what to do, or where to go, or who to be. 

All of it. 

But i just really dont know. I am clueless. And whether that is ok or not, im not sure. But its what it is, those are the facts. And so so many people i know, dont know either. We are all confused, scrambling to find answers. Desperate to understand. But we dont. Sometimes we just pick randomly, or sometimes its based on how we were brought up, or the people we are surrounded by. Sometimes, we just avoid it altogether. We say, ‘oh it doesn’t interest me’, or,  ‘I dont like talking about it’. Very seldom do we sit, and think, and use all the resources available to make an informed decision. Even more seldom than that do we admit that we are simply uninformed, and we really just don’t know. Why is that? Why are we so scared to tell others that we are less informed than them, less educated on the matter. It makes me feel so dumb. But it is ok not to know. In fact, i think its quite beautiful. Because there is a world of knowledge to discover. And not knowing allows me the opportunity to grow and learn. And some of the things we dont know, we focus aimlessly on too much. What am i going to do when i’m older? I really dont know. But i don’t open up my laptop and research different avenues and options. I just sit in my bed and stress myself out about it. 

I dont’ know why...

Maybe this doesn’t really make sense. I’m not sure. But these my thoughts. 

Short n sweet today. idk.