focus

If i could just master the task of sitting still. Of keeping quite. Of blocking out the surroundings. 

Lets be a bit self aware. This is a skill. A discipline. It can be learned. But how?

I just cant understand why my eyes wander so easily. What are they searching for. Or who? I sit still, i try to study, and i succeed. I really do, but it takes so so much more effort than it needs to, because every five seconds im looking away, turning my head to see who’s walking past me, or checking my phone to see if i have any new notifications. Is it attention? Is that what i’m seeking? I really dont know. Maybe its not so complicated. Maybe there’s no deeper meaning and i simply turn to see as a natural reaction or instinct.

Go work. Come on, focus. Believe in yourself. You can do it. You can, and you will. 

Update (its now a few hours later)… i did in fact do it. I got my shit done. Proud of you <3